A million miles away, in my mind
All that I desire will come with time
Reeling back, I find myself behind the glass
Oh what Id give to fly back to our past
Never again, never again
Tell me once again why we found ourselves here
Hearts pounding, breath quickened, tingling with fear
Oh the apprehension, dont want to fall away too quick
Many nights have gone by, I feel home-sick
Away from all whom care
Soul-searching, wondering how its never fair
Could it be, that this karmic retribution brings
Loves strengthening solution, above all things
Always and forever still, I wonder why
Reaching, for the answer, in
I can feel the resurgence of the monster within me
Fangs grow as I dig my claws in, grinding my teeth
When I hear the answering machine
Green eyes glow within the depths of my mind
Cogs starts to turn as the images appear
None which soothe me Ive come to find
I withdraw my trust as the monster emerges
Fingers twitch upon the little strings
Anger brings about dangerous urges
How appealing it seems to pull the noose tight round your neck
Dear baby I fear this will be my biggest regret
Thus is my nature, a beast lives within me
One that forgives, but never forgets
Clenching my fists, monster sneering
I want to say the
Whispers, secrets, and lies I fill my life with
A jaded compromise, I smile for the camera
Inner demons aside, blind faith alone is your alibi
Contorted images of perfection, these arms are full of track marks
Will I be tonights selection? Only one way to find out
Sell my body to the window shoppers in the dark
As I climb this social hierarchy, trying to make the list
I bend to their will, for their upturned noses
Their snobbery, will for sure, be the death of me
As I climb into their beds, I think of you my love
As my legs, they spread, for a chance to be a star
This town has imaginary spotlights, so maybe someone will see
Put off by the lack of meaning, in the way you dish discipline
Every time I wake up I know, that beat is weakening
Cant you hear it screaming? Just listen.
Dying from the inside out, this fire is barely burning
And even with this cocaine fueled madness, I cant carry on
They take to the streets, bundled in black, mourning
Im frustrated, staring at these infinitely white walls
Each second seems just a minute too long
Trapped in this cell, its eating away my sanity
Making the promise was a lot easier, than dealing with this
The end result of my ever growing vanity
I blame yours for bringing me here, away fro
Lights fading from view, but they twinkle for me
Illuminating this darkness I know I can beat
Its kind of lonely without you, but I got to move on
I know you remember how much I hate this holiday stuff
The smell of pine and cinnamon impregnate the air
As I walk through these streets, an escaped refugee
The people, I know are beginning to stare
But honestly baby I really dont care
Im running away, how delicious it is
The snow is falling, for miles around
Ive lost my way, how silent the world is
If only, If only youd pull me out
A million miles away, in my mind
All that I desire will come with time
Reeling back, I find myself behind the glass
Oh what Id give to fly back to our past
Never again, never again
Tell me once again why we found ourselves here
Hearts pounding, breath quickened, tingling with fear
Oh the apprehension, dont want to fall away too quick
Many nights have gone by, I feel home-sick
Away from all whom care
Soul-searching, wondering how its never fair
Could it be, that this karmic retribution brings
Loves strengthening solution, above all things
Always and forever still, I wonder why
Reaching, for the answer, in
I can feel the resurgence of the monster within me
Fangs grow as I dig my claws in, grinding my teeth
When I hear the answering machine
Green eyes glow within the depths of my mind
Cogs starts to turn as the images appear
None which soothe me Ive come to find
I withdraw my trust as the monster emerges
Fingers twitch upon the little strings
Anger brings about dangerous urges
How appealing it seems to pull the noose tight round your neck
Dear baby I fear this will be my biggest regret
Thus is my nature, a beast lives within me
One that forgives, but never forgets
Clenching my fists, monster sneering
I want to say the
For all you guys who comment on my journals, I love the heck out of ya for those who don't I still love ya anyway. I haven't been able to send out replies cuz this version of mac comps in the lab are whacked out and simply checking my account is like torture seeing as how everything on the site is chopped up. I can't seem to convince the lab dude to change the browser to firefox damned heathens! Convert I command thee!!!
Either way enough of my spazzed out shit man. Graduation is on Wednesday and I'm sick as well as sick as I can be. Not cool.
Its been a pretty awesome year for the most part with the exception of all the stuff that's be